Wednesday, January 28, 2009; tired
i tnk i make it fast.haha..recently cny kp on play mj..actualli i cnt play wan nd to revise work..recently my heart like kp on sudden pain..e feeling is like my heart like being tense up or wat..last time will hav dis bt nt so frequent..but recently is like everidae..even i laugh my heart will gt pain..pain till i nd to pause myself..i donno hw..i tnk i goin a health chk during holidae..2dae whn i said abt health chk no one in my family care..den i kp on emphasis tt i going health chk during holidae..then my mummy start to ask y..then i told her tt recently my heart suddenly will get pain..then she quickly ask mi whn go chk..ask mi faster go chk..then i told her aft my exam then go chk bt she insist i tml go take num n chk..aft tt she told mi tt whn i in her womb e doc cnt examine out whr my heart is which quite dangerous..so tt y i zhao chang (early one month cum to dis world)..aft i heard dis rit i donno whether wanna to chk..if realli chk till sumthing happen to mi..hw??n nw i also don hav e time time to go chk..juz c..wont so fast report de..hahaha..alway's look on e bright side of life..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
10:44 PM
Saturday, January 24, 2009;
i tnk i stupid sia..at e student dialogue session..haiz..abit sian..wat we feedback..ya watever..yr 1 d-n-s ppl veri yaya lor..they like big shot liddat everione whoever commented on sumthing they wanna to add in..its none of their biz lar.they noe wat..kp on argue bk..feedback is wat..they donno wat it mean is it..faster go sailing..everi course hav e difficulities bt u act like u noe our course..it is nt nice whn u guys like commented on others course..like our course nt gd as ya..so chidish even brought up o-level..mayb they r still kids..
realli cnt take it..coz feel like they looking dwn on us..so i like yaya too i actualli said i takin d-p..let them noe..hack care..nvm let them noe i gt ability to take..to shut them up..actualli i noe once i said it..ppl will tend to chit chat u abt it..hack care liao..i tnk will hav alot of ppl gan bu shuai mi liao..heng in sch i still gt frienz..tt nt tt bad rit..dis 3yr faster pass..goin yr2 liao haha..
bt to e d-p rit haha..i tnk i gonno b kicked out liao..coz my result goin fall like hell..bt actualli being kicked out also nt bad..cn hav more free time..so juz c e lao tian..
recently i wanna to stdy bt like don hav time for mi to stdy..coz i felt tire easily..for mi takin nap is e most impt den stdy..haha..i nw don aim high le..i tnk i goin e netherland gt my BMO..though i felt abit scared to go there..bt for mi my gpa hard to get mi in a local uni tt provide my course..n local uni will nd to spend up to 3yr or 2yr..bt if i taking dis BMO its used up onli 1yr..coz of exemption of modules..3month at singapore,3month at netherland which provide place to eat,slp and laudry service total S$25,000..sound gd rit..mostly e gpa don nd so high..hahaha..k anything i juz cont my poly life if till tt time my gpa cnt make in local den go oversea..haha..kies i go lu li le..exam cumin veri soon le..bb bloggy
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
10:10 AM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009; peaceful..
at e biginning i didnt feel peacful at all..once i noe he nt block mi bt deleted my hotmail add..i felt realli angry abt it..hw cn a person changed till liddat is i was e one hu is blind all along..or surpposed is liddat..once break up mean no contact..am i tt irritated to u..as a simple normal frienz..u cnt b??ya heart so small till take mi out of ya firenz list??
my frienz shown mi hw to chk if dis ppl whether his deleted u..appreciated it coz she let mi awake n i wont feel pity to break up wif him n felt peaceful n fortunate tt his is nt my bf..ya mayb i nw being unreasonable stubborn childish inmature..i hack care le..wahahahha..to dis i also learn 2 b strong..i tnk i going to change my blog skin as it seen abit emo..tnk i cn step forward of my life..
haha..nw abit siao..goin to bath le..my pig pig damn cute..ya daddy don wan u its ok mummy want u..i will take care of u..don worry mummy wont put u away..haha..soooo cute she nw slping den close her eyes n kp flicking her ears..like a angel n princess..heex..luv ya pig pig..wo de xiao bao bei..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
5:04 AM
Sunday, January 18, 2009; yeah....
erm...failed agn..feel nth..hahahahahah...my family didnt dare to said anything..haha..thur went bugis wif ting n wy..i brought a dress,long sleeve shirt wif vest..total spent $30..cheap cheap..hahaha..i hav to change cnt wait 4 him anymore..my life hav to go on...recently quite alot of young ppl commit suicide case bcoz of love stuff..y they wanna to end their life..they r still young n they hav quite high qualification..but y..will commit suicide..ya i noe its painful even i tnk of suicide bt i don hav e yong qi to commit suicide...mayb tnk of dying will killed off e painess they hav ba..haiz..so young..juz bcoz of love..haiz sad case..i start to tnk abt relationship..although sumtime will tnk of him n tnking am i still waiting for him...bt aft all dis i don tnk it worth 4 mi to die juz bcoz a guy or gal heart changed..juz endure e pain n wait for ya true one to cum..i tnk nw wont wait for him anymore..he alrdy changed..he don wan to stay contact wif mi as i noe he decided to find sumone better than mi..juz nw viewing sumthing n discovered sumthing..tnk he gt gf le...i sure cn find better ones..since he cn find one..i also cn..i assume he gt..so tt my heart n mind wont wait for him anymore..i sure cn find a better one..i rmb wat he told n promised mi..bt all dis r juz lies n craps..hope he cn treat his current gf better..bt haiz tnk staying single better..nw i don hav e confident to go into relatioship..n nwadae e world hav changed..ppl gttin more n more open..i feel fear..k abt it liao..hated myself everitme saw his pic or him will gt emo..
recently findin frienz 4 my daugther..she seem lonely..don wan her lonely like mi..pig pig, mama will find one sister 4 ya..sian i still gt alot of thing haven do yet..haiz..am i giving up liao???
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
3:37 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009; wat kind of family is dis??
haiz..2dae go to temple n pray for my thur test..bt juz nw my mood was gd bt till my sis start to said abt failing my driving..realli cnt take it..they kp tnk i will fail bcoz i din wear veri nice to drving..kp on emphasis i fail bcoz i din wear nice..i realli cnt take it..at first still gt confident dis time wiill pass..bt then after they kp on repeating repeating..feel angry n fan tt they kp on rubbing..den i shout at my sis explain 2 her din fail bcoz my wearing..den i get realli irritated by her..den my mum kp on addin addin..den still said i din listen to her bcoz i stubborn..ya i stubborn..so wat..ya wait till i stubborn till don wanna to take test..realli veri upseting n angry..y..my mum still side my sis...e feeling realli veri bad..they said til like my fault wanna to fail n blame mi for being unreasonable to shout at them..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....frm young hope to leave dis family...she hated mi frm young..sumtime will wonder am i her child..ya i e msot stupid and ugly wan in e family..ya kp on side..veri hard to c u stand at my side n support mi..veri hurtful whnever u side them even they were wrong...y i muz take all dis????wonder whn i die they will sad ma...
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:05 AM
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:05 AM
Saturday, January 10, 2009; haiz damn shit
shit i 4gt to send to mr julian our assignment on time..shit..we already do finished long ago..den due to mi..i donno y i will 4gt..shit tnk tml sms him n tell him..if realli wanna to deduct mark, deduct frm mi nt frm my grp members..shit...how cum i will 4gt it...recently wat happened to mi..realli giving up..ahhhhhh..shit..kp on 4gt here n there..hate myself..AHHHH...veri veri sry to shidah n ting n shahrill...haiz...haiz...damn stupid i...wat happened to mi..cn sumone pls slap mi..let mi wake up...haiz...haiz....haiz...late by 1hr n send him..shit...ahhhh...tml c whether he will deduct mark marks ma..hope he wont deduct..haiz....
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:13 AM
Friday, January 9, 2009; haiz
e previous post i accidently click enter..den onli gt title..haha..actualli did blog abt e glt training and other related stuff..bt com hang den save as draft..so fate ba..mayb complaint too much on sumthing..hahhahaha..
haiz my result sux like hell..like hell leh..actualli don mind scoring e point but whn ya c everione do veri well..e feeling nt so gd..donno y..abit sian..e prob..is i donno i at e giving up position or other..feel like hack care..hahaha..wat shld i do??realli donno..
my hse e toilet kp on hav prob wan leh..e toilet pump cnt flush e toilet bowl..den e shower thing leakin water..den dis two alrdy settle..NOW e MAJOR wan..which i hated it most.....HEATER announced death.....wth..nw haven find ppl help to install a new wan..realli don feel like bathing sia..bt bo bian hav to bath..everitime jumping like hell..e water damn cold sia..hate cold water..feel like take my clothings go sch n bath..
2dae juz another boring dae for mi..haiz..whn my life will b interestin...lol..
i get emo agn..since e dae whn in vivo..bt few dae bk..one of my junior met till him..my junior better den mi lor..he still cn chat wif him..i leh..he totalli don wan to take mi as frienz le ba..my junior told mi mayb he shy..ya lor shy till block ppl..lol..mayb i a nuisance to him ba..den gt to noe my junior broke up wif his gf..haiz..he also heartbroken bcoz of family..den we two kp on chat abt relationship..den i told my junior i don blive in love..coz donno it will b so painful..so don dare to go into relationship..bt nvm ppl wont like my character lah..dis expreince hav once cn liao..if realli gt e second wan i hope it will b e last..one of frienz told mi tt her mum said mostly e veri first bf veri hard cn b ya husband mostly is e nxt..donno true anot..mayb gt one time exprience will noe to cherish more on e nxt and b a better sumone to him or her..so tnk shld b ba..
half yr passed..i will go over it..
cuttin dwn cca stuff..nd to focus on study.if nt realli cnt gt in uni..though said goin oversea wan..bt my heart still abit scare scare..coz nt in singapore..den go there donno will being discriminate n bully by other ma..bcoz my lecturer lar i at first didnt tnk much wan..bt he shown video of ppl gt killed in e middle of rd..haiz..tnk stayin in singapore better..gt family n frienz here..if realli wanna to get in local uni i hav to work hard..bt hw sia..bcum so lasy...
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
1:02 AM
Sunday, January 4, 2009; Bones gonna break soon..
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
12:59 PM